Oh sweetie, you opened a can of worms on this one. I do so know how it is to raise kids the best we know how, make sure there are clean clothes, meals, taxi service, social secretary, you name it and most moms can relate to some of it. I thought we were a great family unit. It seemed that way until after they married. I do want to make it clear: I think the world of my daughter-in-law and son-in-law and I'm not blaming them. It's just that most of the time they think in lines of a babysitter when they think of me. Neither my son or daughter called me on my 60th birthday..too busy, forgot, etc. For some ridiculous reason I feel I need to make sure their gifts for birthdays, anniversary, valentines, Easter, etc, yep we do them all, are on time. It's hard to not feel loved and appreciated. I want no monetary items, just kids who value their parents and at least see the many times we went out of our way to make sure they were able to do something or gave of our time to help them move, build fences, play "mom" while they globe trot to Africa, India, etc. I'd love for either of my children or both to sit down and write a letter of their memories growing up. What memories they treasure and maybe some that weren't so joyous. I feel invisible and taken for granted. Geez Louise, I sound pitiful! We basically sent Rachel to Scotland, Paris, Mexico, etc. Some of these were medical for her husband but she wanted to go so we purchased plane tix and then gave her a bit of spending money. I don't want a gift for this. Others would do the same, just a little call for nothing or email for just thinking of you. Enough of my whining. I've probably said too much and you probably have lots of readers wishing I'd end this ridiculous pity party.
I think a fiction piece would be great. One could insert appropriate things from life and build around it as you want. It may also make you stronger and feel better about yourself. You were definitely put on this earth to heal and heal you do. You give so generously of your time and your loving thoughts. I know our offspring don't often tune in but they really don't know what a gracious, lovely Mom they have. And I also know that's typical but I can't figure out why. One week I think we have "all our ducks in a row" and the next week they're squawking or waddling off to ignore you. I definitely agree on the hurt feelings and the uncertainty of where these feelings came from.
I have felt really down since I came back from R.T. I really enjoyed R.T. but something was bugging me even then but I still can't pinpoint it. Any drs reading? I always think of Huey Lewis & the News and their song, "I want a new drug." If it would let me see myself in a positive light I would be all over it but I doubt that's the answer or the cure. O.K., it's NOT all about me. I have to remind myself.
I doubt if I've aided you at all but that was my intent. If I would manage to work through the cobwebs of my mind and pull out any pearls of wisdom I'll let you know. Do not hold your breath! It is a tangled web in there.
Oh good grief, I forgot my money. I talked about serenity yesterday and my cottage. Today I want to go (and all who would like to tag along on my very excellent adventure) to a secluded place where there is a resident dr equipped with all the knowledge to change those patterns of thinking which are detrimental and make that permanent. Then we can learn to also help others if we are asked to do so. Wouldn't it be wonderful to look in the mirror and see a good person. Not necessarily a glamorous one but one that satifies. I'm going to quit before I start on my soapbox again. My wish for all today is to celebrate your life and the day we have. It's cold and windy here but I trying to recognize what I like about that..taking me a little time! Best wishes and hugs, Kay
I wish I could help you ladies. But you listened to me at Easter time.. And it really did help me. And you ladies are not alone. My kids are doing better with the letting me know how much they love me. And I do know that your children love you but sometimes they loved themsleves too much.And forget how much they love you and how we much we have given up for them. maybe that is the problem, we did give them too much. We just wanted them not to go thru what we did.
Kay, I so wanted to help you at RT but didn't know how to help you. And then I called you a name in love and fun and it hit a wrong nerve in you. I am so sorry. So my daughter called me a bitch to make you feel better. Do you feel better now????? She was just funning with me.
Steve is still in the hospital..We don't know when he is getting out. Now there is a negative man..He never says anything postive. The nurses run from his room. Becki said he had a black nurse and she heard every bad name you would call a black person. And she said she knew the nurse heard some of the comments..and then he had a Mexican the next day same thing.. And the Mexican nurse was the sweetous person. It was hard to stay in the room with him..DAvid is worried about him. He wants meds all the time and doesn't understand why he isn't getting a buzz.. o David thinks maybe he has be OD ing on meds at home.
David is having the hose on the pooper tomorrow.. Sorry but I have been laughing all day. He is a little worried because of Steve's problems. Becki and I have trying to get him to get one for a long time.
I have been working on computers today.
Kay where ever you want to go I will follow. A nice restful break would be good. How is the farming going?
Jennifer it was so nice to spend time with you at RT. You are always so much fun. And I have Fabio and me as my desktop wallpaper. I wonder if it makes David think I will leave him for Fabio. haha!!! Fabio needs to lighten his hair a little. It was a little too dark. but he still has that sex appeal...
Tomorrow is another day and it will be brighter for both of my best friends.. The Hell with kids!!! We have our husbands and our friends. And BOOKS... Good books from Carys and Jennifer. Later
I don't have anything to offer on the daughters/kids front except *hugs*. My sister is kind of doing the same thing to my mom, though there's other things thrown in there too for good measure. *sigh*
Something good? Hmm... We took a spur-of-the-moment trip to Eureka Springs this weekend. I have about half the work done that I need to do this week (read: by tomorrow evening) done so that I'll have nothing to do Thursday except pack and leave. :)
I hope you have a great day, I miss hearing from you but hope that you are having fun...
My, my, my..our Brenda looks so happy she could...uh, well, she looks great beside the handsome Fabio. After seeing him interact with others at the SOS at R.T. I can say he seems very nice. I thought he might be too conceited to bother with a line of women wanting his picture but he was so nice to all and especially to our military. I think Brenda should have this pic enlarged and hang it up! What do you think, David?
Hope your Texas trip went good. We had some of Texas come here. My husband's aunt passed away and his 1st cousin lives in Montgomery and her daughter in Houston.
It's so cold here. Right now it's 44. Think it got down to 30 something last night. Mother Nature isn't paying any attention to her poor shivering people. And I'm sure I'll be the first to complain about heat and humidity, but right now it's too cold and damp. When husband can get in the field and stay there instead of getting rained out will be a wonderful day...trust me!
My dream money..I must have a gazillion megabucks by now.So..I want to go to my English style cottage with the housekeeper's little cottage behind it. I don't want a single thought of "should do, have to do, don't wanna do" to enter inside the doorway. So all who might visit my country abode will be filled with calming joy and happiness. I could name my "estate" Serenity or somesuch but I don't think I will..I and all who visit will anonymous. Now the money plays a part in this because anyone who wishes to visit will have free transport and we might even (after a wonderful visit) plan a get-away to a top-of the line spa to get even more serene.
All for now. Have a funeral to get ready for. All who read or post, I wish you a beautiful day regardless of the weather or other circumstances..just enoy..and if you like, read a fabulous can't put it down kind of book. Hugs, Kay
All righty then, I'm going to try to post again. Having forgot my alias put a stop to my fun.
I have pics from R.T. and will be sending them across the Mississippi.
How are you doing Jennifer? The surgery procedure sounded really bad. Hope you are pain free for a long time. I know sometimes that's not what we're dealt but that's my wish for you.
Went to everybody's place to drop money, WalMart, and instead of getting needful things I got lost in the book section. Good grief..I may have to go to therapy or some such thing.
Brenda isn't playing nice with us. I've tried calling for 2 days. I sincerely hope the two surgeries went as planned. Will try again later.
You know, walking around Wallyworld simply wore me out. I need to do the household chores I least like: mopping, dusting, vacuuming, you got the picture but I believe I need a nap. Will call my mil so she doesn't interfere with my slumber time.
All from cloudy, raining any minute, Illinois. Hugs, Kay
Sorry Kay that I didn't return your phone calls until today or was it yesterday.. I don't remember. Steve is still in the hospital and won't be getting out before Sunday.. We are going to take Becki's three girls home tomorrow and stay with Becki until Steve is ready to come home.I hope soon.. I am ready for things to calm down. After two days of 5 grandchildren, we need a break.I haven't recovered from RT.
And Kay I think you need help. How many books did you bring home from RT and how many are on your shelves to be read?.. HAHA!!! I know what you mean.. There is always room for 1 more book. But if you need a Dr let me know. I will be going to one soon for my Bertrice Small problems. I thank you for all of the help...Wait, I don't remember any......You just said I was sick.
I enjoyed Rt and seeing Jennifer and our other friends, new and old.
I will be reading Angel Bet sometime soon and let you know what I think.
Later and have a save trip.
It's Monday and Steve still isn't home for the hospital..We finally decided to come home and wait and see when he is released. Dr said it might be Thursday. He isn't haven't any major problems. They have tube and pumping everything from his stomache. His colon isn't wanting to push stuff thru, it isn't blocked. It is just taking extra time.
I finally got some needed rest. I slept the whole way home from St Louis yesterday. And didn't get up until after 7 today. We have to go to see David's Mom and do some stuff for her. I am doing laundry and going thru my RT stuff.
Take care everyone...
Some thigns have been kind of kicking my butt lately, so I didn't even know you were gone until today and now you're probalby back, or very close to it. :)
My little dog was gone for over a week, but we finally got her back yesterday. Maybe I'll start sleeping better again now. lol.
Wow. Your dog was gone a week and then showed back up? That's great that she is home. Ya gotta wonder what sort of little adventure she had, don't ya? And be grateful she didn't get into any trouble. Is she fixed?
I wish she had just shown back up on her own, but we had signs & flyers up for her. Someone finally finally called and said they had her.
Yeah, she's fixed. They did that at the animal shelter before I adopted her back in October.
Are you still going to be at the OWFI conference next weekend?
O.K., now I'm definitely coming south of the border with you. My money is going with yours so you can do the villa however you want. I still want a pool, don't like saltwater pools, and we need a pool/yard man. Now he won't have lots to do to the yard or pool so your mission will be to think up others chores for him.
I bet Brenda will put her money with ours..we can make it modest but with supreme class..or whatever floats your boat because you came up with the idea. I can picture us now..laughing like there are no problems in the world. Then we can go wherever and read what catches our fancy. Wow! What a day and place for a daydream. Especially since today is gray, windy, misting, etc. You get the picture. April in Illinois.
Anybody taking serious warm clothes to R.T.? I can't decide what to take..not that I'm going to be outside but we will have travel from Chicago to Pittsburgh and back. Wish we could beam up..wouldn't that be nifty.
I really need to get my act together and figure out what I'm taking. I don't want too much because it's hard to get books and freebies home. Can't wait to see what's in the book room!
All for now..just checking in. Good luck trying to get whatever you're doing to work. From that you can tell, I don't have a clue.
See you Tuesday. Enjoy the weekend, even if where you live isn't sunny and warm. Hugs, Kay
I hope that you got your lightscribe to work.
I can hardly wait to see you. I still have packing to do. I started and found out that the closet was back to shrinking the clothes again. I wish I could figure out how it does it. I decided to bring a light jacket instead of a winter coat and one or two long sleeve shirts. I might be sorry. It will be cold in chicago. Kay and I are going to Plainfield tommorrow to my sister in law's house and spend the night. We are going to leave Kay's car there. And they will take us to Midway on tuesday. Our room number should be 540 unless they change it. We needed a lower floor for Kay. She sure doesn't like elevators. We land around 12:30. I hope you aren't flying American Airlines. We are flying southwest.
So i don't think there should be any problems.
Yes, you can have my money for the house. I will find the pool/yard man for us..I think we will need a cook and maid also. We won't have time for any kind of work. Just drinking, reading, and having fun.
I started taking antibiotics yesterday. My nose,throat, and ears were hurting my. I am much better today. I had to go to Wal-mart and get monostat, I always get an yeast infection anytime I take antibiotics. So I think I will be ready for the trip.
See ya in Pittsburgh!
O.K., I'm with you in South America and I'm definitely with you on the zoning out. Stupid details just derail my nice daydreams. You can take whatever liquids, gels, etc as long as they are in checked luggage. At least as of this March. Airlines are changing by the day.
You were discussing and cussing your costumes of choice. Amen to that too. I do wish they'd get off the fairy, goddess whatever theme it is. Not too many of us do the theme justice and wings or whatever are too hard to pack and I simply look ridiculous and that is an understatement. This year it's a black tank dress with huge rhinestone hoops for the Hollywood era. The undersea whatever I have the same dress in a lavender and I'll put some green with it and that's it. Silver thongs for the feet...no heels on these old feet. The vampire thing is always the same costume...black knit pants and a black knit hoodie. Real original..may wear the silver sandals again. I'm taking some kind of jeans or capris with tops to mix and match and sensible shoes....oh, my gosh..I sound 60 with my "sensible shoes!" Well, so be it!
Think I'll pool my money with you and instead of a modest villa we can upgrade a notch...I can see us now, laughing, watching the ocean, drinking stuff with little umbrellas, be it lemonade or stronger it should come with the appropriate adornment. Then there's our pool boy....Hmmm Oops, this is your call...can we have a pool? Please, please...can we?? Sounds like the kids doesn't it? Well, I just might revert back but maybe I never grew up to begin with. Oh well, south of the border sounds great!
See you Tuesday, hopefully early afternoon if you aren't busy.
Later dear...and to all reading this, I hope your weather is better than windy, rainy, chilly Illinois and enjoy your weekend. Kay
I am with you guys on the costumes themes, SiMPLE. I am wearing a black glitter shirt, pink boa and black pants for Tuesday. Black pants and shirt and a cape for the Friday party. I have king looking outfit with a crown for King Neptune, don't think I will take a wand but the fairy thing, its has got to go. Lots of jeans and comfy shoes. Tennis shoes I think most of the time.
Do you think I can put some PEPSI's in a suitcase???? Or WAter..
I will throw my money in the pot with you guys. I think the pool boy should be an Alien..And I am for the umbrellas thing. I always wanted one with my drink... See ya in the south...
I hope that all is well with everyone. Cloudy here and cool, I am so ready for spring.
I feel so sorry about bashing my borther in law, Steve about Easter.
He needs everyone's prayers. He has had a very large "belly" for several years, but it was hard not soft like mine. Finally his Doctors decided to check it out. He has a large mass on or in his colon. My daughter, Becki got him into some doctors which her Doctor knows in St louis on Friday. They are doing lots of scans on Friday. His doctors were talking removing a large part of his colon and lymph nodes (sp). so we will see on Friday what the "good" doctors say.Becki is going to the Dr with Steve. He doesn't have anyone close to him except Becki. I thank God for such a good daughter. She is such a take charge person and such an organize person. It might be the reason she is having problems with her husband. She does it all. She arranged everything with the doctors so he would get it all done in one day and have the resolves too. Of course it pays to have connections from her Doctor.
About my money, I am still paying for our North Brush Creek Ranch in Wy. Might need to give a little to Steve for Medical bills.
Rain rain go away!!!!!!
Be sure and keep me informed about your new book, is it an ebook or printed book? I think Becki might like this for her family Tree stuff..
Working on computers and babysitting today.
About my dream money, I am going to give it to the American Idol Give back Fund. They give the money to kids in the Us and Africa...