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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Sleepless spring nights...

I had one of those sleepless spring nights (that was really a late winter deal since it's cold here, still). I stayed up until four a.m.--at the computer, surfing--nothing constructive--okay, shopping on ebay--went to bed (naked--is that tmi--too much information?) and tossed and turned and was up by 8 a.m. Just couldn't sleep.

Needing a man in my bed. Did I mention my husband's out of town? If you ever wonder how I can write from the viewpoint of a lonely woman so well--this is the sort of thing that gives me full knowledge of the emotion.

I think we're all lonely sometimes, even if we're married or with someone. But sometimes the feeling is much more profound, and seems like a living thing that eats away at us...a gnawing hunger for companionship. Ya know?

You'll find a lot of my characters are starving for that feeling of kismet and completion. That's because I totally believe that it can happen, and I think we're all looking for it...that one person that makes us feel like it's all good and we can face anything because we're not alone.

Except, sometimes we ARE all alone.
*HUGS* to all the lonely people out there.
In that, we are not alone.

Posted by CarysWeldonblog :: 6:55 AM :: 18 Comments:

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18 Comments:

Thanks for the hug. I can definitely relate. We all have moments of vulnerability.

By Blogger snowflake, at 5:14 PM  

Hi Carys,

If my hubby is out of town I always sleep in one of his t-shirts and I sleep on his pillow.

Before I started doing that I had terrible times sleeping, but it really helps.

By Blogger Jaynie R, at 5:22 PM  

How true. Had a hard time sleeping yesterday myself. Something in the air maybe, the waning Moon perhaps. Been feeling like getting out of my skin whole day today as well. Crazy days. Thank god for books! and authors! ;-)

By Blogger aBookworm, at 5:44 PM  

I certainly understand how you feel, although my husband doesn't work out of town. He's just sleeping by the time I go to bed and sometime I have a very hard time sleeping lots of times, and when I climb in bed, I wish he were awake so we could talk or cuddle, or do other things...lol!
Cathy
tholix@pineland.net

By Blogger tholix, at 6:52 PM  

I certainly understand how you feel, although my husband doesn't work out of town. He's usually alsleep when I go to bed, snoring logs, and I'm awake until lord knows when....don't sleep well. Sometime I just wish he were awake so we could talk, or cuddle, or do other things...lol!
Cathy
tholix@pineland.net

By Blogger tholix, at 6:55 PM  

Hugs back to you! If one is lonely one can feel alone in a crowded room of people; been there done that.

By Blogger robynl, at 7:31 PM  

Sometimes I just want to be alone.

By Blogger Estella, at 7:45 PM  

Carys, you're a new to me author when I started your werewolf books recently so I'm thrilled I signed up for your newsletter, so I too have the opportunity to chat with you. I'm learning about blogs and I'll get the hang of it soon. So first I wanted to tell you its a joy meeting you.
I understand lonelyness (I'm not a good speller!) And its now after 2 am and I'm doing my mails and reading groups and shopping around, more like window shopping. I'm not lonely tonight, I know everyone is asleep now and the dh probably going to be looking for me soon because he's always checking and patting my side of the bed to see if i'm there.
I feel a lonely ness over the last year dealing with the chronic pain with stage four endrometisis and the masses. After going through so much, oncologist appts, scans, and on and on, I wonder how to explain the pain to others and then again I didn't want to, making it feel like i'm being a burden. Well a week before Christmas, I was afraid to say that the pain was really bad, and I went to bed but woke up and it was the worse ever. I then began to realize this pain is different. I woke up my husband and he took me to the ER and found it was close to my appendix bursting so I was sedated and took right in for surgery. See I felt so alone with the pain, that I couldn't tell anyone about it anymore. But after this, I learned to listen to my body, that it was ok to say 'i'm in pain' but the lonely ness is still there. Not alot of people understand this and its hard going through the surgeries. So I do understand, thanks for bringing up a topic that I talked too much (so sorry!) but maybe my story will tell others its ok to say something when you're lonely.
Cathie
(TBRAnxiety@aol.com)

By Blogger Caffey, at 11:30 PM  

I think it's hard to sleep when you are used to having your husband in bed with you and he's not there. As you say, you know you are not alone when he's there, even when you're asleep.

By Blogger Maureen, at 3:43 AM  

That is so true. Thanks for the *HUG*. I needed it and here's a *HUG* for you.

By Blogger Marian, at 4:19 AM  

I agree with you completly. I think we all need companionship.

By Blogger Tammy C, at 5:05 AM  

I'm sorry you had a sleepless night.
I'm tired as well at the beginning of the week it was 80 degrees now its back down to 40 which is normal but what a tease to have that warm weather. Hope hubby comes home soon

By Blogger Beth, at 6:45 AM  

Sorry you couldn't sleep. I'm tired as well was 80 degrees on MOnday and today back down to 40 sure do miss the warmth. Hope hubby comes home soon - Beth

By Blogger Beth, at 6:46 AM  

I am one of the lonely people. Reading helps so please enter me to win a book.
Vicky

By Blogger Doodle, at 6:51 AM  

I agree... Sometimes even when we're with people, we're still alone. I've been in a household of kids all day long, and feel totally alone... wishing for companionship... (mostly the company of another adult)... it can become very overwhelming at times... I'm a very shy person, it takes alot for me to come out of my shell... so when I start feeling lonely, I make a point to come out of my shell... (like this post!) lol! I really enjoyed your post!

By Blogger Christina, at 7:13 AM  

I found I could be lonely even when in a crowd of people. You are so right about searching for that 'someone' to take away the lonliness.

By Blogger robynl, at 11:57 AM  

I understand loneliness; I found at one time that I could be lonely even if I was in a room full of people. Hugs all around.

By Blogger robynl, at 12:46 PM  

Hi Carys,

Just wanted to stop in and say "hi".

I really relate to this post and your thoughts on loneliness and companionship ~ and, you expressed everything beautifully.
(My husband is out of town on business right now too.)

By Blogger ChristyJan, at 1:47 PM  

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